I have very little confidence in my art skills. I know I'm not a terrible artist but I'm always doubting how good I really am. Every thing I draw, I can only see the mistakes and things I could have done better no matter how hard I try. I have friends, family and random strangers who constantly tell me that my art is amazing and awe inspiring. But I just can't see it. I mean, I frequently upload all my works on about eight different websites yet I only average around a dozen or two views each. It's extremely rare that I get anywhere near 100 views on a single picture. And getting likes, favorites, shares or comments? Consistently in the single digits. (Hell, I expect this picture to get ignored like everything else I put online.) As for commissions? I'm lucky to get one or two a month if I get any. So maybe you can understand why I have so much self doubt despite how often people tell me my art is oh so good. I often feel like everything I do is a waste of time. There are days where I seriously contemplate just deleting all my work. Just throwing away all my notebooks and drawings. Just never drawing again because what's the point? I'm terrible at it! I can't see myself improving! I'll never be as good as all the other artists across the internet! Everything I draw, that I pour hours of work and meticulous detail into, I see hundreds of others who can make an immensely superior picture twice as fast. They're earning a lot of money on Patreon and such. And they deserve it more them me. Only people good at their craft deserve to make a living from it. And yet I still draw. I have to. Because it's the only thing I'm even remotely good at. My only useful skill. Regardless of how terrible an artist I am, art is the only thing I can contribute to society. If I can't make art, the only thing I'm good at, then I am useless to the world and I'd be much better off dead.
Read the fucking description. I have nothing more to say. (Also, the pictures in the pic are all by me and in my galleries. I'm not linking them so find them yourself.)
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